I preferred to stay

It was spring and it rained for weeks at a time. Icy water droplets falling from the sky, just degrees from freezing. I remember mornings sitting underneath my open window to feel the cool sweet smelling air pour down over me. I drifted away with the humming numbing sound of rain. In those moments I forgot every pain, joy, or dream I had in the world. I would abandon everything as I sat with my face and palms open to the sky.  Dream like, I would imagine my soul fly high, escorted by winged beauties. And they would take me to the One who made me. And I would tell Him I love Him, and I would ask Him to save me. I would complain that I didn't trust my choices and that I preferred to stay. I knew I couldn't stay, back to earth I was sent away. Returning to face every pain, joy, or dream of the day.